Becoming a mom has been the single greatest accomplishment. As stated in my previous post, it has not been easy. I have been fighting with myself to overcome PPD. It has become so much easier to recognize when I need to step away from Lorcan. I am so very fortunate and blessed to have a husband who supports me every step of the way. He is there is take over and be "on" when I cannot. He is there to make sure I get my 1 on 1 time with Lorcan when I need it.
With that being said, I now have a new battle to fight; not being too overprotective around family. Now that I have my momma bear side, all I want to do is have Lorcan by my side 24/7. If he needs a diaper change, I want to do it. If he needs fed, I want to feed him. If he needs a nap, I want to be the one to put him down for one. It is so hard to share him with family. I want to stay at home with him or have him with me wherever I go. He's a total momma's boy and he has me wrapped around his little finger.
Even though Lorcan and Spirit are constantly on my mind, my husband and I have been so fortunate and blessed to have such amazing and involved family. We have been able to go out on dates and have had nights off. Lorcan has spent the night at both grandparents' houses so we could have a little break. I have been able to still be me and my husband and I have been able to have time just being us. It has been so important for me and my marriage to have these opportunities where I can relax and do something for myself.
I hope to be able to blog more about my experience as a first time mom, how my boys are growing together, and about my family life. Stay tuned for the next blog, featuring Spirit and his baby brother!
