Marriage, Religion, and God

My husband and I belong to different religions. I was raised a Catholic and my husband was raised an Evangelist. While those are both very different in beliefs, my husband and I respected each other's religions. We both agreed early on in the relationship that we would never make the other convert. We made a decision that we would find a religion and a church that worked for the two of us as a couple.

Three and a half months into the marriage and we have yet to act on that decision. I work in a Catholic school, which means I go to mass every Wednesday with the whole school. My husband cannot attend any service because of having to work on Sundays. I would like to find a church that accommodates both of our beliefs and time requirements.

I consider myself to be a pretty religious person. My religion and connection with God is mostly personal. I find myself praying on my own whether I'm in the middle of making food or while I'm driving. Even when I would forget to pray or talk to God for a while, I would always feel like it was forgiven.

I've always had the notion that God was by my side regardless of what I did or didn't do. The one and only time where I had serious doubts about my faith and God was during the loss of my baby. I had never doubted God the way I did for about a month. It felt like I was being punished for not wanting a baby in the first place and because I did something wrong. I couldn't understand, and still can't, why God chose to take my baby away from me and let other people keep theirs. Instead of turning towards God in my time of need, I turned away from Him. I allowed my pain and anger to take hold of my emotions and thoughts. Seeing a baby or someone who was pregnant caused horrible feelings inside of me for the first month. Slowly, I began to start thanking God for all the blessings I do have. I thanked Him for the opportunity to have seen my baby's heartbeat before He took my baby up to Heaven. I prayed that God would bless my husband and I with another child when the time is right.

The past month, I have reflected on how wrong I was to doubt God and to doubt His plan for my life. I realized that even in the toughest of times, I should always be thankful that I have a roof over my head, clothes on my back, food on the table, and money in the bank. I should never lose sight of the wonderful things in my life. God has a specific plan for me and my job is to trust in Him and enjoy the adventures.

Religion and God has a huge part in my life and in my marriage. God is the steady rock in an otherwise turbulent river that is my life. He is the rock that I turn to to thank for everything that I have, He is who I ask for help in my times of trouble, and He is the foundation for my marriage. Without God, I wouldn't have the life I have today or the husband that I love so much.

I have no doubts that He will bless my husband and I with beautiful babies and a prosperous life. I have no doubt that He will walk by my side throughout my whole life. Religion is important to me and my husband. It was always be in my life and my prayer life will always be a staple of who I am.